I love my black long sleeved dress. I feel beautiful and comfortable in this dress, it’s just the right length, the sleeves aren’t too long or too short, and it shows off all the right places. It’s one of my favorite go to dresses. Today it ripped…
I may be over dramatic here but it was heartbreaking. Mainly because I can’t afford to replace it. We are just at that point in our lives, where I can’t afford to replace everything that breaks or tears. I was getting more angry by the second when this bible verse slipped into my mind.
Matthew 6:25-34“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?
“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
I was reminded in this moment the gravity of this verse. When things are easy and the money is flowing in, we lose the significance. The Lord knows what we need, he knows there are basic needs that need to be met. And he says if he takes care of the birds of the air and the flowers in the field, won’t he take care of us. If this doesn’t cause you to stop and just praise the Lord, let me phrase it this way.
We are so quick to think that the Lord is against us, that things just aren’t going right. Whether it’s something big, like a family member having cancer, or something small like a ripped dress, we are so quick to change our tune. We are so quick to believe God has forgotten about us, that we are on our own and things will never get better.
And it’s so easy to get trapped in this train of thought. The second my dress ripped, there was no stopping my mind from getting frustrated and upset. I couldn’t think of anything besides my ripped dress. I was angry and upset, texting my husband in anger and thinking about how I can’t replace this dress and my favorite pair of shoes that ripped two days ago. Until I could feel God saying to me, “Kayla, I will take care of you. I am here with you. I will lead you through this time. Trust me.” (once in a while I actually hear that still small voice)
My time during this medical school journey has been one where I have been actively reflected with God about my faith and trusting Him.
When my shirt rips, my family goes through a rough patch, or my husband and I have an unexpected financial expense, I can choose two options.
I can choose to respond as I did with the ripped dress, in anger. I can be angry that things aren’t going my way. I can be angry that things are hard. I can be angry with the world that life isn’t the perfect journey I wanted.
Or I can remember this verse. I can tell myself, if God is taking care of all the animals of the world, and he values me so much more, do I not trust him to take care of my needs too? Do I not trust him with my finances, with my future, with my marriage, with my dreams?
Every day we are faced with decisions. And each day we get the opportunity to respond in Faith instead of Fear.
Today, I pray you respond in Faith. Respond with grace and understanding. Know that while the journey may not be unfolding the way you planned, that God has PERFECT timing. That perfect timing will come to pass. Whatever you may be dealing with today, try a technique my mom always used. When life is hard or she didn’t know what to do, she was on her knees in prayer. She was on her knees asking for guidance, asking for wisdom in the situation. And I have no doubt He answered every prayer, maybe not in the way my mom wanted, but He answered EVERY prayer. He is answering your prayers today, and he is guiding you along this path. Keep the Faith!